Forgiveness and Love

God is working in my life, I feel it now more than ever. This weekend my Aunt Beverly came to visit for the family reunion. I lived with Beverly for 8 months in Chicago, before I moved to Elgin. I treated her badly and stole from her on multiple occasions, I even lied about it. We haven't had any contact since I moved out last August. I got upset at her for discovering that I was stealing from her and calling me out on it. That was a year ago.  Since then I've began reading my bible and forming a relationship with God. I have been dreading seeing her ever since I found out she was coming to the reunion because I was still ashamed of the person I was, and I had never apologized to her. I saw her yesterday, before the reunion, and she greeted me with a hug and a smile. I thought to myself that holding a grudge or being scared to be around her was unnecessary because she had already forgiven me. Here I was worrying and trying to avoid her all weekend because I was afraid she would not want to see her thieving little nephew. I thank God for this chance to see. her and apologize to her finally, I bought a bottle of tequilla (what I stole from her a year ago) and gave it to her tonight and sincerely apologized for stealing from her and lying about it. We hugged, a real hug. I walked back upstairs  prayed and cried because I am so happy that God made it possible for her to forgive me, and that He has changed me so much that I feel his forgiveness as well. Tonight, this weekend was truly a blessing, seeing my aunts and praising God. Just what I needed. THANK YOU LORD!

Thanking God for my family today. They are nosey and irratating, but they love me past all of my faults.

honesty and such

Today was a good day, I worked all night at kohl, got a lot done and received some personal advice from my managers. This morning I came home and slept for about six hours.
After I woke up I went downstairs and have breakfast then I went outside to see if my mom needed help in the garden. She asked me to help her cut down a few roots in the front yard, and after that
she wanted me to move the stones around the flower bed. I forgot the last party of her instruction and went back inside to have a glass of wine and finish watching some show on animal planet...what was the name of it.... River monsters, yeah of think that's it. Anyway my mom walks in and starts cussing and saying I need to get up and help her outside. I honestly did forgeth the second thing she said about the stones, but the way she came at me was completely rude. I decided to write her a note letting her know how I felt and that I didn't allow anyone to curse at me anymore. After I gave her the note we had a very honest conversation about expectations for the both ofus. It was a very good thing and up really feel that by telling honestly how I felt without attacking or accusing it really turned out to be a good thing for our relationship.

staying focused

It hasn't been easy staying on task with l the new distractions in my life, the new phone included. Work is work but with the prospect of school starting in less than a month I know that I will need more money from scholarships and grants. I've been letting time go by without serious looking at all my financial options... I need to do a few things around the house this week, laundry, finishing the ditch for the pipe and writing the letter to the lady at Lawson about filing me as independent. I also signed up for this a team event at work, we are going to an elementary school on Thursday to teach kids how to plant flowers. It should be fun, and I need a little fun right now. I'm reading the bible more now that I have the app on my phone. Long day today, I worked this morning for five hours fame home, had the best steam bath and then took a nap, I didn't do much but it seemed like a long day. Tomorrow will be more productive. :)