Of late my prayers have consisted of confessing my sins, praying for the health of my friends and family going through surgery, and of course thanking God for everything he gives me, and shows me everyday

I've had a good week. I've gotten a lot of the things done that i needed too, my bank info came, i applied for school, i even looked at a few scholarships(though i didn't apply). I also started praying every night before i go to bed, that is really helping to clear my mind and just give me time to open my ears again. I watch tv in the day, a lot more than i used to, i know that the there are things influencing me on telly all the time. So i'm going to pray for God to help me discern what is the truth scripturally and what is not

I had a great day! I started working on my car to remove the alternator at nine thirty, i didn't finish till four! I pretty much did all the work myself, with a few helpful hints and tips from uncle doug and my mom. That was my day under and over an engine, i'm chillin now with my mom and cousin geana having a few brews and watching salt

First day driving was a success, i drove from the library home, and i drove from the house all the way to the dollar tree where annette works. Having my permit is super cool! Tomorrow my mom is talking about having me drive all day... It sounds exhausting, but i know i can do it. I've got my confidence up and i know i can handle that car better than i could. I'm really getting better with each lesson from my mom.

I had a pretty good day. It started off okay. I went down to the dmv in bessemer, i had to deal with a really negative older lady at the office, but once i got my stuff straight we didn't have any problems. I got my drivers permit and my library card today, i'm glad i didn't go to regions bank. I don't feel like getting a new bank account, i like my bank, but as usual my mom thinks she knows whats best for me:) i know she wants to help, but she is always trying to dictate what i do.

Seeing 2011 really freaks me out. I'm still out used to it yet. The gps says that we are exactly an hour and sixteen minutes away from the big house. Thats what my mom calls the house. It is big, there are twenty six rooms or something crazy like that. Like seven or eight bedrooms. And a steamer/sauna in the basement. I'm still excited about getting there. I know by the time we get there grandma will be asleep. Lol she normally has a pretty early bedtime. I think lana and doug will be awake probably watching a movie or something. I know i may have to find a good wine store in my trips around bessemer.

Honestly this road trip has been pretty fun. The only past that wasn't fun was the past in ohio where we kept running into problems with the dolly then the car, then the dolly again. Its too complicated to talk about from my phone so i won't try. Its sunday night and i'm pretty damn tired. I'm just glad that i don't have to drive. Lol that'll be an experience, learning how to drive. I know that once i learn how i'll be the one to go out and fetch things all the time. But i don't plan on being home that much. Kohls has already accepted my transfer down here in hoover, and i may have a second job at target. Though it all depends on my schedule and how many hours i'll have each week.

We are in alabama by the space ship thing, i think we are in huntsville. We have been listening to maya angelou for the past three hours. So we've been having a good time laughing and talking about food and family, our own family is at home making lupia, my aunt and uncle live in hawaii and they are here visiting so for my return to the south they are making a traditional hawaiian meal. I'm excited, you know me and free food always get along. I'm gonna need some sleep afterwards though. But i doubt i'll get too much sleep once i see everyone, my family likes to talk. Lol

Its a good feeling being back in alabama, so close to my real family and so far from people that didn't really have my best interests at heart. I wonder if i should record a new version of my self help for stuttering. The last audio version seemed to help really well. That with prayer, well truly prayer by itself is all i need to be more confident in my speech

We are spending the night in ohio, its been all day trying to get the battery, pull the dolly into the yard. I'm so darn tired of messin with that car, i just wanna eat, have a beer and go to sleep. Well i wouldn't mind having my sleeping bag in the house. What is really cool is that uncle frankie has a pool table in the living room. Its like the ultimate bachelor pad over here. I'm tired and if the chinese food doesn't come in the next hour i'm going to sleep.

Yesterday my mom picked me up from elgin. It still feels surreal, i'm noticing its easier being myself around her, probably because my entire sense of self has been uplifted. Thank you God.

Birthday Sex... no thank you

Amanda from work wants to come over tonight, I know what she is on.. and even though me and mayra are on a hiatus doesn't mean i want to go hooking up with her.